What do you think is happening? Explain to me what you see your future looking like. What is the ideal? What is the worst case scenario?

Is that what you want to happen?

Did you want to salvage the relationship whatsoever? Do you think you need to be single and counseling wouldn’t help?

Are you taking your inadequacies out on me? Do you think dating other people is going to make you not wish you’d pursued music as a career or had a closer relationship with your family?

First of all, I want you to understand how hurtful it is that, during a conversation that you knew would be about the end of our relationship, the relationship you had with a person you said you loved, the relationship that helped to mold you into who you are now, that supported and encouraged you for FOURTEEN YEARS- I want you to understand that bringing Kelsey up first, as if she is the first and foremost important topic we had to discuss? I don't think you'll ever fully grasp how gross that was of you. I hate Kelsey. I hope that keeping her as a friend, was worth losing me as everything else. I hope that brunch with her is really worth never speaking to me again. I hope every time you hang out, which is what you so desperately want to do and feel so "limited" by, you have to ignore the thought that I will never forgive her. 

Secondly. I can’t believe you would make me not only take on the emotional burden of being broken up with, but you also are too cowardly to break up with me, forcing me to take on the emotional burden of being the one to break us up. For future reference, that is not what a good person does. Going to therapy would have lifted some of the crushing weight of this situation off my shoulders, and you wouldn't. You lack the emotional maturity to work through these feelings on your own, and crushed my spirit forcing me to untangle your feelings for you. Feelings you still won't be honest about. You are an adult. You should be able to navigate your own feelings, instead of making me think and feel for you. If you cannot figure out what not eating, sleeping more, and having a general lack of interest in things that once interested you is all about, this next stage of your life is going to be VERY DIFFICULT. 

Even though I’m sure you want to fall back on the rationalization that you didn’t hurt me maliciously, that it was entirely unintentional that you fell out of love with me- I want you to realize that it still hurts just the same. You don’t get brownie points for hurting me when you didn’t mean to. You still hurt me. When you started to feel like you were losing grip on what you liked about US, you should have told me. You should have worked for it. You shouldn’t have let our happiness die in you. It takes two people to make a relationship work, and for the longest time I’ve felt like the only one putting in the work. Being here isn’t the work. Simply existing in the same space isn’t the work. It’s honestly cruel that you make me feel like those bare minimums are such a drain on you. I hope you figure out what the work is, out there with the other girls you so desperately want to date, because you’re gonna need to.